it's 4am and i'm awake, can you help me unravel my latest mistake?

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.

How does the world see you?
Coffee & T.V (Blur)
*take me away from this big bad world an feel free to marry me..*

Will I have a happy life?
Carry You Home (James Blunt)
*strong as you were, tender you go*

What do my friends really think of me?
The Day We Find Love (911)

What do people secretly think of me?
Rose (The Feeling)
*you and your delicate ways.. hmmhmm*

How can I be happy?
What You Got (Colby O'Donis)
*everything that you want you got, girl you know that you need to stop*

What should I do with my life?
I Kissed a Girl (Katy Perry)
*hope my boyfriend don't mind it* ^.^

Will I ever have children?
Madi Don't Leave (PlayRadioPlay!)
*madi dear can't we just disappear and take our chances..*

What is some good advice for me?
Decipher Reflections from Reality (PlayRadioPlay!)
*what do you do, when your life's a disaster, and you're moving faster, and it's getting harder to breathe*

How will I be remembered?
Gloves 2 Ali

What is my signature dancing song?
Wouldnt it Be Nice (The Beach Boys)

What do I think my current theme song is?
Across The Universe (Rufus Wainwright)
*nothing's gonna change my world..*

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
When Will i See Your Face Again (Jamie Scott And The Town)
*all my life i've been waiting, waiting for some, someone like you to love me*

What song will play at my funeral?
Your Body is A Wonderland (John Mayer)
OH YEAH?

What type of men/women do you like?
Lucky (Jason Mraz/Colbie Caillat)
*lucky i'm in love with my best friend..*

What is my day going to be like?
Famous Last Words (My Chemical Romance)
*i am not afraid to walk this world alone*

on a mildly wonderful day, it is easy for me to pretend that i really like some people.
today happens to be one of those happy days.

Il pleure dans mon cœur

Il pleure dans mon cœur
Comme il pleut sur la ville.
Quelle est cette langueur
Qui pénètre mon Cœur?

C'est bien la pire peine
De ne savoir pourquoi
Sans amour et sans haine
Mon cœur a tant de peine!

-Paul Verlaine

Falling tears in my heart,
Falling rain on the town.
Why this long ache,
A knife in my heart.

By far the worst pain
Is to not understand
Why without love or hate
My heart's full of pain.

i grew up with a man who doesnt clear up after food and who just dumped my dose of evidently fresh and bottled barley brew into the clearing sink.

besides the handsome shaven Smith Jerrod-ish types on tv now, im just a faithless girl who really hates men. 3 months ago a Sex and The City quiz i took told me i was Carrie Bradshaw, just today they decided i should be Miranda Hobbes instead.
is there any wonder why im this fucked up yet?

i've spent the past 23 hours smiling my day away and the remaining 24th feeling like it didn't happen.
what is a girl to do on her own.
and who am i alone.

you have done well, gentleman

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
2. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
3. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
6. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
7. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can’t “be friends”.
8. A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle.
9. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
10. Don’t stay because you think “it will get better”.
11. You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
12. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
13. Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
14. He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any different
15. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
16. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
17. If something bothers you, speak up.
18. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
19. You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.
20. Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has more education or in a better job.
21. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
22. Never let a man define who you are.
23. Never borrow someone else’s man.
24. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
25. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
26. All men are NOT dogs.
27. You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is a two way street.
28. You need time to heal between relationships. There is nothing cute about baggage… Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
29. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you… a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals… look for someone complimentary. ..not supplementary.
30. Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.
31. Make him miss you sometimes… when a man always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
32. Never move into his mother’s house.
33. Never co-sign for a man.
34. Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need.
35. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

i used to be so happy being on my own, alone.

stop divorces. ban marriage.

• my snout's on an operative trot and i can't catch up. my head hurts and my mind's an a-zoner. and this is what we call, a running nose
• i see a wedding. i see some rings. i saw monsters. i saw brides.
• my unofficial sick-leave-post-work-and-sans-medical-certification shopping trip helped me pick up a married-to-myself ring. it twas' a fruitful.
• i'm missin' little pepsi. i'm missin' P's little pepsi. actually, im thinkin' about P and i miss little pepsi.
• i've become so bad at writing a story i've started summarising everything.
• dear lord of the good heavens i love my new eyes
• last morning at work, i had 2 women tell me they love my hair. when i got to my third it sparked a fervently loveless need, so i embraced someone. love much?
• "you're always the sweeeeetest girl. i need to see you next week. and that is a promise" go sell your shite somewhere else

stolen from a difficult day

"you need a coupon to park your chair here. i am going to fine you 10 cents"

-the brother

they say that you're in love, when reality finally feels better than your dreams

last night i dreamt, that while over at my ex-lover ryry's i discovered he was secretly 30 years old, reared venomous phytons and had an adoptive malay for a mother.

multiple events later when i was home and asleep i woke up, still in my dream, to a text from chernie which stated that he really loved me before i spotted a burglar in the dark and outside my windows.

a very short song

Once, when I was young and true,

Someone left me sad—

Broke my brittle heart in two;

And that is very bad.

Love is for unlucky folk,

Love is but a curse.

Once there was a heart I broke;

And that, I think, is worse.

toys

thank you for cheating, please try again

once there was a wonderful man
who donned very luscious tresses
so bronze like golden glows
smooth-skinned like ochred porcelain

tall as he is handsome
strong as he is frank
handy as he is faraway
tasteful, sweet like chardonnay

intentful as he was attentive
fixed a broken laughter as he would a lamp
what makes him a dream,
in fact; perfects a tangible sham

what an unmannered gem

this wonderful man adored me
doted on me like a fool
cuddled me as one would a child
would run for me, if happiness was 22 miles

beam for me, my grace is costly
fly with me, my heart's for free
as cake is to its cream, as salt is to its sea
your puckered kisses, your wishful missus
pickled and prim, eleven years green

such a wonderful man,
you're not this wonderful man

but that's okay

i'll have my own drums to play with someday

remember barcelona, remember me

ive submitted about a thousand entries to season espanol's grand draw to winning a trip for two to Barcelona. nevermind if i don't win but i suppose a guardian angel is out there and watchin' so bitch knows i better get something bigger and better in return.

like, Friends on dvd seasons 1-10.

think twice, here is my only advice

we were like my dream came true, only for me to learn while preceded by a harbinger that this love could be nothing more than but an overdued nightmare.

then again, nightmares are dreams, too.

halloween howl

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. ('.')
2. t-t-t-tia!
3. butter_cup211

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. lips
2. brows
3. hands

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. wonky right eye
2. fat flabby arms
3. teeth

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. hongkong chinese
2. taiwanese chinese
3. peranakan

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. dirt
2. overtly humane emotions
3. losing a loved one

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. lip balm
2. phone
3. tissue

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW:
1. white tank
2. cherry hearted girl boxers
3. YSL nail varnish in shade 19

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. 311
2. five for fighting
3. lauryn hill

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW):
1. i'm yours - jason mraz
2. pork and beans - weezer
3. it ain't over till its over - lenny kravitz

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. stability
2. happiness
3. honesty

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. nice, clean hands (and nails)
2. strong, hairless chest
3. good teeth

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. reading
2. music
3. cycling

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. a starbucks' chai cream blend
2. eyelid surgery
3. hug somebody

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. news presenter
2. fashion merchandiser
3. YSL brand manager

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. barcelona
2. italy
3. bali (again)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married
2. tell people i love that i really love them
3. have some ice-cream

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. love heels
2. love colours and pink
3. love my boobs

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. short hair
2. left brainer
3. love drums

THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
kyer
lish
chernie

a low-spirited lioness is a depressing sight to behold.

just had to

10 movies i hate the most

1. The Notebook

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my mane is a shiny hat, my hair is glossy magix

i want a dinner, and then a movie, yeah.
i just wanna fall into bed with chernie now even if it means watching another bad movie that stinks so long as one doesn't have to be without the other; and then fall asleep in his arms again before its all over.

god put a smile on my little face (:

All My Life i've Been Waiting

Waiting For Some, Someone Like You To Love Me,

You Can't Come By Like An Angel, Into My Life,

And then Fly Away, Fly Away....

and then i thought, no

this is dreadful.
by the end of this entry my decision to break up with chernie would have become officiated, and i would be back on this unforgiving market of frenzied dating and uncontained sexuality. (read: lover who is potent and not insensibly insane)
that man i saw on the tv and in the magazines. who once left me in buttered chuckles just passin' me on the streets.. and that man in the poster whom i once pointed out to and said to myself "i want". he was mine.
i thought it might be time to let you go, just so that i could see if you would come back. whatever this sick sad reality would bring me i'm not ready to know. not for now at the very least.
only thing im wishing now is that i could get our picture back.

remember 080808?

hugsandwishes,

baby T

X

we act as though they don't exist

i swear i could almost hear my mind say

" listen to your heart on this. don't trust me "

it's like my head and my heart could finally communicate in peace. it feels as though i am finally at ease with myself cos' my brain just spoke to me in foreign tongue.

leave me don't go

for the first time in a long time i am starting to feel again the long-lost undated thrill of a monthly haircut. this is going to be The Haircut of my life. colossal transformation expected. yes its haircut day.

head's jello, epidermal surges like them bumpy flutters, hands so cold with my stomach twistin' like bugs in a churn. psyched enough for a day? someone say amen. Nothing very much to do with my neurotic mane-crazed compulsions. i am just in need of a change. Purely, now, for psychological reasons.

trust my shrinking butt, don't trust my smile.
well not for today, but maybe tomorrow.

:)

i kissed a girl and i liked it too

heaven forbid me but i woke up from my inadvertently insufficient 3-hour slumber this morning to thoughts of Katy Perry and "i kissed a girl" playing in my head.


specifically, lollipop lesbians only. i'm wholesomely un-gay

ive got a plan about having my next post concern a europe holiday.

Ry: so how's the bf

Tia: the truth is, we're good.

the lie is.. we're perfect.

i remember wanting to talk about this before.

i want..

1. a pink YoguBliss with berry toppings, Medium
2. a can of Jumpies, Chicken Flavoured.
3. my temporarily incarcerated sexy new mobile. (ANDRE. HELLO)
4. my fucking job (that i so badly miss) back

earlier today, bebechern hadta listen to me rant about my strange, strange sunday for almost an hour.

it wasn't the back massage.
it wasn't his kissing me.
it wasn't his trying to please me with ice-cream;
and it def wasn' his adulatory idolization of Jessica Alba and her mythical boobs and publicly holding a magazine up to his face just so that he could kiss her on the cover that makes me think he's so adorable.

but it was discovering his telephonic willingness with listening to my appropriately unromantic ranting of what has been happening to me this whole weekend he's been away. this made my heart smile the rest of its day away. i was suddenly feeling again like the luckiest girl in the whole wide world.

random. but i'd give my bebechern's left nut to do Mila Kunis.

You heard me. i likez

ian says:

i

will

be

there

to

break

your

fall

cos

i'm

already

at

the

bottom.

so fall on me, okay?

here's to a besottingly apparent realization

i must have the Dont-Hesitate-You-Inadequate-Fuck-Say-Something-Mean-About-Her face.
why all that womanish, malicious bitching otherwise?

And so i've read that the #1 prayer that's never left unanswered is the anger management one.
The Lord listens to the prayers of those
who ask to be able to forget hatred.

-Paulo Coehlo

just what i might need.

With that aside, i want a lover whom i can tell 1001 mushy things to.

NOW where's my baby?

my man

dear heavens, teach me how i can ever love my humongous, fugly trout of a nose.

please, teach me how.

fact is, i've already caught the movie thrice

sunday while in the car and on our way to sweet c's place....
(i'm sorry but we really do call each other baby ALOT)

Tia: bebe, have u already caught wall-e?
Chern: nope
T: would you still want to catch it?
C: of course! we made a promise we'd catch it together, right?
T: haha yes baby.. but.. could they have already ended the run?
T: it's been awhile
C: nope they haven't, i've been checking
T: wow, really?
C: yes baby.
T: wow but.. it's been so long i thought you wouldn't wanna catch it anymore..

C: what are you talking about baby? didn't i promise i'd catch it with you? my friends have been trying to have me watch the movie with them and everyone around me's caught it. but i told everybody that i've promised someone-else to watch with her.

T: . . . . WOW baby you know, i was given tickets to the exclusive wall-e premier party BUT, i rejected my friend cos i never forgot about our promise to catch the film together.
see... because of you!

Both: AWWWWW *big hug*

❤

happy first month bebe. you so handsome.

" you will be better tomorrow "

-kyer say

so crush me, disappoint me. like i know you never will

random, BUT wall-e is by far the most brilliant animated masterpiece i would ever be untimely touched by. having already caught the movie thrice and then always feeling particularly moved by all these robotic displays of overtly humane emotions (namingly wall-e + eve).

i can never recommend this movie enough.

but if wall-e doesn't make you feel, then i'm sure you don't have a fucking soul.

ps*i do figure that everytime i lean over and reach for his cheeks, its just my ostensible display of a seemingly inappropriate level of public affection, but i just secretly really like reaching out to him that way. he's not complaining

"i swore to you i'd never fall apart"

i was almost heading out tonight before i incidentally chanced upon some shite my baby's friends were bitchin' about. they were about me.

they made me cry and they made me really sad. they made me check if my astrology reading for the day stated any misfortunes or foresights i could be warned about. they made me weep to my mates like a little child. they thought i was a dreamer, and that i was untimely vain. that my baby and i together make the most unlikely union, that i stuck to my baby like we were bonded at the hip, and that they'd be sitting back to laugh at what would become of us.

this lacking in rationality is making me want to decapitate myself. i'm trying to seek a healthier lesson in this and perhaps deal with it all more sensibly without messing our relationship up. times like these calls for a little less immaturity, i know. but should i really have known that this was all too good to really last?

to another grey skied morning

Every day, God gives us, as well as the sun,a moment when it is possible to change anything that is causing us unhappiness. The magic moment is the moment when a “yes” or a “no” can change our whole existence. Every day, we try to pretend that we do not see that moment, that it does not exist,that today is the same as yesterday and that tomorrow will be the same too. However, anyone who pays close attention to his day will discover the magic moment. It might be hidden in the instant that we put the key in the door in the morning, in the moment of silence after supper, in the thousand and one things that appear to us to be the same. This moment exists, a moment in which all the strength of the stars flows through us and allows us to perform miracles.

-Paulo Coehlo
(By the river Piedra I sat Down and Wept)

just how many hats can a woman wear?

dont like what's done to fishes, still like eating them

y'know that bit from Finding Nemo;

where dory and nemo gets stuck in a netted army of fishes in the australian waters after nemo escapes from the dentistry and where daddy marlin yells to the hysteric wildwater swarm for his son, before every other perplexed bait from the slump goes "keep swimmin', keep swimmin"..

that very moment after when nemo seem like he'd never wake up again always makes me wanna cry.

32 songs

1. blind - lifehouse
2. fall for you - secondhand serenade
3. you're a god - vertical horizon
4. the ghost of you - my chemical romance
5. stolen - dashboard confessional
6. i'm yours - jason mraz
7. madi don't leave - playradioplay!
8. she's the one - robbie williams
9. can't take my eyes off you - lauryn hill
10. love song - 311
11. don't take my sunshine away - sparklehorse
12. photobooth - deathcab for cutie
13. collide - howie day
14. when will i see your face again - jamie scott & the town
15. coffee & tv - blur
16. song 2 - blur
17. seven nation army - the white stripes
18. love at the coffeeshop - landon pigg
19. rose - the feeling
20. it ain't over till' its over - lenny kravitz
21. leavin' - jesse mcartney
22. drive my soul - lights
23. come undone - duran duran
24. i eat dinner - rufus wainwright
25. strange & beautiful - aqualung
26. a beautiful lie - 30 seconds to mars
27. ames room - silje nes
28. good morning, hypocrite - electric president
29. stay - the do
30. mouth full of bones - natalie portman's shaved head
31. maybe i - five for fighting
32. wrapped in piano strings - radical face

20082008

i've had the past four days pass me by in a flash and it's just another four days before my baby comes home to me. all i wanna do is beat'em drums, jam'em music and listen to you sing aloud in your horrendous voice again. i've been waking up to smiles from thoughts of our lovers' violence in excess, to your bed being our newfound wrestling ring and to my constant reminders of your cuddling too tight till i can't breath. babybaby, kuai dian, come home to me. ❤

....these days i get so full of love i make myself sick. ❤

go on, come wield some cutlery at me

Sam: i hear he's really tall
T: yeah, like, 180
Sam: not nearly as tall as i am
T: i know! omg, you're like, so tall! but how tall are you, really?
Sam: i know baby, 181
T: omg dood haha! wow ive always thought u were taller than 181
Sam: how tall have you always thought of me to be, really?
T: like, 182
Sam: *glares*

lost you in a february song

because i am so narcistically deranged, i have decided to write myself a love letter. which brought along the realisation of an empty epiphany in which ive learnt how i havent been loving myself enough..
judging from the fact that i was almost starting with..


"you're so dumb"


for a first line....
but....

"
i love how you're self obsessed enough to actually be attempting the first love letter of your life in 19 years.

i'm in love and i love you."

xoxo, T

٩(๏̯͡๏)۶

i'll always be fine when you are near

to the kin who showed me, how things should be

to a friend in this life, so brotherlike

to love and be loved, by the you who loves me

to the man who takes pride, in treating me right

to the twin soul i can never do without, heres to you

happy birthday zee :)

how much more would you love The T at 19?

my bears got honey they gave me some money

59 things i want to tell somebody but i cant but would someday have him know anyway

1. i was attempting to write you a love letter


2. i tried following an author's template


3. i failed


4. i want you to trust me


5. yes, we've been talkin


6. but hey, its just talkin'


7. the only occupant of my heart, is still you


8. i can't help it


9. i can't imagine ever having u outta my life


10. in fact, i think about moving along all the time


11. but i can't imagine ever leaving you behind


12. truth is, i don't wish to


13. love sucks, true love swallows


14. in our case, this is true


15. one tree hill blows


16. chad michael murray's character in the show's a douche


17. you should be ashamed how much you find yourself to be like him


18. he is definitely not a model example of a man for you to follow


19. i think you're really dumb


20. but i think about you all.the.fuckin'time


21. i like it when im starin' into space and lying right by you


22. actually, all those times ive had you wonderin', i was thinkin' bout you


23. your kissing skills have greatly improved


24. i enjoy your kisses alot more now than i do before


25. you secretly, stereotypically fancy females of my type, i know


26. with my type, i meant quirky


27. you should like me alot more cos im half insane


28. im quite awesome


29. i'm not demanding, i don't have a temper


30. your nose is full of blackheads


31. it makes you quite disgusting


32. you've got a vanishing jawline


33. i would suggest for you to start watching what you eat


34. i think your immature pecs are the cutest


35. but i'd still like for you to really workout more


36. is frustrates me when i feel like you dont care


37. frustrates me even more when carrie&big reminds me of you&me


38. sometimes when i think about us, i beam like a fool


39. i've been beaming like a fool for about a year now


40. how's driving?


41. i hope army in september wouldn't take too much of you away from me


42. i hate how im not getting to spend enough time with you


43. you're my porker


44. so even if zhijian is gay like you you're still better off being with me


45. im curious about how you feel. but it makes me afraid


46. honestly, that other night you were in your beanie, you looked so cute you blew me away


47. your hair sucks btw


48. i think you're weird and i don't know how we'd ever fit together


49. remember valentine's? (hehe)


50. you hair feels soft like my make-up brush


51. now i feel like touchin' it


52. actually, i just want to touch you


53. no, seriously. touch me?


54. do you ever realise how you'd miss me and like me alot better when i'm not with you


55. i get so hungry at work sometimes


56. i'd really love for you to visit me at work someday


57. i can't wait to show you off to the world, like a proud, special friend


58. please move to katong. or never have your parents leave you and leon to share a room.


59. okay. got food?

"the redhead's just too much of a manly woman, samantha's just insane, carrie's just stupid cos mr big's an idiot, the other brunette's just moronic"

dear princess,

if there was a wish in this world which could make me stop worrying about you, i'd wish you could have a video call with me now so that i could know if you're not having sex with someone else.

love, me

so we go..

their voices sound like telephones

i am approximately 7 days and 22hours behind finally entering the 19th year of my life.

the more i grow, the less i feel i want to understand anything.

But if there's one thing I know, it's that I never really know enough.

Seems like the roads stretch out like veins, but there's no heart. Nature's haircut is concrete now, and we played our part.

I've lost my taste for modern things. They're not for me. I want mundane: a quiet place, where time is free,

Electric President - Good Morning, Hypocrite

this exCitement is mAking me misspelL eVerythINg

here comes from my usual outbreaks of severe randomnity a virgin fisheye shot that i am almost too sure now is easily securing itself a position with my FPOM(s)* for the next 100 days.

it's your birthday
it's your birthday



"no, no, NO.... the trick was to rip her still-beating heart out of her chest and SHOW IT TO HER before she died, but she hadn't so much as glanced at it. Sometimes Butch felt like he was the only one even remotely trying."

Blooms and Felicity fill the air
You've seeded your bloodline a Brand New Heir
It's your birthday
It's your birthday

*(Favourite Photographs Of Myself)

w-what?

wall-e.
yes. i want to catch wall-e.

i like quirky, but c'mon

You're Babar the King!

by Jean de Brunhoff

Though your life has been filled with struggle and sadness of late,
you're personally doing quite well for yourself. All this success brings responsibility,
though, and should not be taken lightly. Life has turned from war to peace, from damage
to reconstruction, and this brings a bright new hope for everyone you know. These hopeful
people look to you for guidance, and your best advice to them is to watch out for snakes.
You're quite fond of the name "Celeste".


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

my last move my last fall

where is my head?

where is my heart?

this isn't enough about....

i've had about 29483756 best minutes of the year this year. but sometimes i dont like talking about good things too much, cos it makes me feel afraid should they ever start to slowly go away from me. So here i welcome again, at the most ungodly hour of 5.22am; this beautifully weathered wednesday morning, as well as the unsparing exterminator of my most cherished brain cells that is INSOMNIA.

random

but i do like how i'm actually "writing" again, despite the erratical excess or even having nothing to write about at all. it makes me happy sometimes reading myself the way i've had my thoughts autobiographical-ly recorded on this little personal public space in the world that i have, than the idea of sharing what brand is my boob cream and why X's legs are hairier than Y's. uh.

婆婆,

我❤你too

:)_T

theres nothing else more that i'd want now....

....than another half a dozen of SLII Muffins and a sweetie's hugs.
:)

analog heart

dearest patrick,

you have been amazing, and i am going to miss you.
and if it wasn't because of me being this bad with pictures as i am, i would have loved a photograph with you
:)

Until September,
T

moronosphere

it is now 10.37pm on a saturday night and there have been nothing from my usually cerebratory-induced brain thats got me a thing to say.

Today i had to go to work, and then i saw a good looking dog lying weak outside the mall's glass doors. Straggling, lost from it's owner, disoriented and probably very thirsty. Patrick was rationally suggestive regarding the remedial options of stray relief. But tis to be Singapoop, where SPCA is stray warrant and where straying mammality is submitted to eternal slumber. The dog's got nothing but animalistic optimism left now that all sources of hopeful reliance is gone. But for luck's sake and should the heavens permit that helpfuls or the owner of said stray "chance upon" thy blog:

Your handsome black dog is at Orchard Road.

so, ruby

i am a woman

i am an island

but i am not alone

templar afterthoughts

....and have i already mentioned that the perfect man shouldn't have man-boobs

a peculiar young teen wrote this

What do you see, chum? What do you see?
What are you thinking when you’re looking at me?
-a peculiar young teen, not very wise
uncertain, conceited, with far-away eyes.

Who ignores when you call, and makes no reply
When you say in a loud-voice “young highness, benign”
Who seems not to bother the things that you do
And forever is tactless, cold-blooded and cruel

Who reluctant or not, goes against your will
Is that what you’re thinking? Is that what you see?
She’s broken, anon, she’s torn, she’s unreal.
Open your eyes now, you’re not looking at me

I’ll tell you who I am as I sit here so still
Exasperation within me, the hunger to kill
a small child at five, so loved and revised
sweet as a candy, innocence entice

A growing soul at eight, no reasons to cry
Some reasons to fight, some tears; I hide
A rebel for a cause, I’m bad, I’m eleven
Like serpents in hiding, so latent, so driven.

A young girl at fifteen, with wings on her feet
Dreaming soon now, a lover she’ll meet
Alluring, so young. She shines like a star
One ticker away, from the getaway car

Inside she crumbles, innocence departs
There is now a stone, where she once had a heart.
The swain in you, like a fool in the swine
Regret befalls me, emotions untwine

Within this façade, the little girl dwells
Now and again, my battered heart swells.
Time’s too little, all’s gone too fast
I’ll accept the stark fact that nothing will last

So open your eyes, fool, open and see.
Not a peculiar young teen, look closer.. see ME

what makes a happy bunny

i served Marie Osmond at work today

thank you..

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if winning meant this much of a friend.
i have won just about enough.
:)

souls sinkin' like stones (all before you)

it all begins with the letter E;

where T would last abide

your love is an ephemeral truth,

and you are but a lie

(clue: e _ k _ _ a t)

sugar melt my gliding heart

irresponsible owners please dont rear one.

the unedited.

the original:
Just last week, a seemingly usual conversation with this British cutie from school whom i have been crushing on forever led to the discussion of ethnicities which made me comment on how asian most people have always thought i looked. To which my speech was being halted by my crush's hilarious reaction, all wide-eyed and bewildered, going 'NO WAY, but... but.. but your eyes! They're Sparkling Crystal Brown!' Tickling my funny bones, barely being able to reply albeit amidst bags of giggles, i said 'haha oh.. its.. uhm.. my brand new coloured contacts.'

He have never stopped noticing my eyes from then, and everytime we speak, still curious as to whether those 'Sparkling Crystal Brown' pupils are the resulting products of my brand new CIBA VISION FRESHLOOK cosmetic contact lenses.How curious, you ask? SO curious that he's finally asking me out for a movie date for the weekend just so that he could examine my brown coloured pupils a lil more! Date #1? Scored!

long may it stay this way..

the weather Gods and the celestial watchdog seem to have kept a close guard over this iffy climate before bucketfulls of rain were sent my way this pretty first evening home from Phuket.

drizzles, occasional rain, calm seas, light winds
relaxed little paces, so simple.
nothing flashy, no blings.
so quiet, so safe.
walking, eating, walking, eating.

letting it all go by ..



wishing for all my times away with the camera that two photographs of the same pretty beach wasn't all that my nonexistent photographic skills could give.

my only sunshine

jinglebells on the seashore

birthdays at dawn

valentine's on a halloween

rainbows at midnight

a red heart on an orange pumpkin

easter eggs in the snow

lighted candles and a cake on the ferris wheel

this is love, don't you know?

playshady

每当我背对星空

抱着地球
发现自己其实脆弱.... 不敢说

当我背对星空
孤独摸索
爱情渐渐萎缩.... 我猜不透

the wonderland where boredom is saved

it is almost inexpressible how arduous it has been getting by them endless nights without the almighty bluebear for meu non-existent bedtimes. no kudos to the chen junior who decided he'd loan my precious half-read novel to the english tutor.

i am so angry.

from which i was suddenly and randomly reminded of an old school day from the 16th.. when a textual attempt to comment on the illegibility of my handwriting by a then english teacher resulted in the mispell-ation of said expression..

as "illigeble"
i think her name was miss kake.

sono grata....

to the most uncannily brilliant man the heavens could bestow in one's life..

to our most inarticulately priceless moments, albeit countless..

to your constant impartment of unusable knowing-ness..

and to every other time you made excessive laughter a life endangering cause for us both in this past 5 years of our precious friendship..

i wish you, my dear friend, a very happy 24th year of your life.

Happy Birthday Alexxx

hearts, T (24/05/2008)

it is of utmost importance that the owners of bad-behaving dogs be watched.

especially if its....

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female

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this made me smile....

5/28/2008
J: i was thinking bout that time
J: hahah when was it.
J: june 29th
J: or was it may 29th
J: hahahah
J: wait let me remember

T: oohhhmmyyyggoodd 4 years ago
T: and you reemmmmmmeemberrrr !

J: yesss i remember
J: i even remember what we wore
J: damn loser hahahaha

T: its JULY 31ST i am going to kill you

J: hahah i remember you insisted you had thunder thighs
J: but i didnt think so.
J: hahahahah

T: and then i invited you
T: bcos

J: cause you invited B and B
J: and felt it was weird if i didnt get the invite
J: hahahahhaa

T: hahahhaa yes
T: lol
T: and you were wearing a RED polo
T: rightt?

J: yesssss
J: from hush puppy
J: hahhhahaa

T: hahaha you're crazy la eh i even have the neoprint still

J: hahahaha what crazy you then more crazy

.... =)

when the hunger's gone

one of the First Things i'd do

about 70 mornings ago....

was laugh

"the importance of colonation should be made known, together with the irreplacibilty of butterflies and honeybees"

when did your heart go missing

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble, You get enough tears to fill an ocean
Thats what you get for all your trouble, That's what you get for your devotion.

Ill never fall in love again

no.4

Dear Amy Winehouse,
i would like to apologise for my inability to write a letter as lengthy and
characterized to detail like your momma winehouse had. I loved how your music sounded like when you sang sober and would hereby express my condolence to the inanimate success of your multiple suicide attempts. For the unfathomable piece of money wasting, coke-snorting, animal-abusing , and societally useless and apparently already talentless unhygienic white trash packed shite that you are, i hope you die the next time you try to kill yourself.

and please remember to offer all that is monetarily left behind from what you own to charity should you succeed in your next suicide attempt. and by attempting suicide i do not mean slicing yourself again. i mean, KILLing yourself. and making sure that you die. like making out with a wild alligator in the river. and i hope you've hired yourself a languistic representitive to read my letter to you, if ever. because you, thinking charity, would probably end up feeding your hair to a angry hippopotamus which refused to feed on you because it happened to be a gracious, fertilizing vegan.

for my efforts to publicly be spelling hippopotamus, i demand for myself a deserved credit of US$200,000 food vouchers.

and until your sanity is regained, i wish you death.

a societal nobody,
T

a danny noriega fan was born today

like how changeling is a wordbook reject

thirteenandahalfstars
thirteenstars
thursteenstar
tstar
thirteenstarsandahalflife
thirteenstarlives
thurstarslive


because glorious is a thursday, and the number 2's my thing.
the day's a 22nd, and 18 makes me teen.

and the tiastar that will always be....
out, ❤

betokened icicles

Having become one of them many societal attestants to the honourable pennies humans are making today in the name of photowhoric bloggers and booger blogs, what reason is there for me to not want to write again?


T is back, tell a friend.