it's 4am and i'm awake, can you help me unravel my latest mistake?

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.

How does the world see you?
Coffee & T.V (Blur)
*take me away from this big bad world an feel free to marry me..*

Will I have a happy life?
Carry You Home (James Blunt)
*strong as you were, tender you go*

What do my friends really think of me?
The Day We Find Love (911)

What do people secretly think of me?
Rose (The Feeling)
*you and your delicate ways.. hmmhmm*

How can I be happy?
What You Got (Colby O'Donis)
*everything that you want you got, girl you know that you need to stop*

What should I do with my life?
I Kissed a Girl (Katy Perry)
*hope my boyfriend don't mind it* ^.^

Will I ever have children?
Madi Don't Leave (PlayRadioPlay!)
*madi dear can't we just disappear and take our chances..*

What is some good advice for me?
Decipher Reflections from Reality (PlayRadioPlay!)
*what do you do, when your life's a disaster, and you're moving faster, and it's getting harder to breathe*

How will I be remembered?
Gloves 2 Ali

What is my signature dancing song?
Wouldnt it Be Nice (The Beach Boys)

What do I think my current theme song is?
Across The Universe (Rufus Wainwright)
*nothing's gonna change my world..*

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
When Will i See Your Face Again (Jamie Scott And The Town)
*all my life i've been waiting, waiting for some, someone like you to love me*

What song will play at my funeral?
Your Body is A Wonderland (John Mayer)
OH YEAH?

What type of men/women do you like?
Lucky (Jason Mraz/Colbie Caillat)
*lucky i'm in love with my best friend..*

What is my day going to be like?
Famous Last Words (My Chemical Romance)
*i am not afraid to walk this world alone*

on a mildly wonderful day, it is easy for me to pretend that i really like some people.
today happens to be one of those happy days.

Il pleure dans mon cœur

Il pleure dans mon cœur
Comme il pleut sur la ville.
Quelle est cette langueur
Qui pénètre mon Cœur?

C'est bien la pire peine
De ne savoir pourquoi
Sans amour et sans haine
Mon cœur a tant de peine!

-Paul Verlaine

Falling tears in my heart,
Falling rain on the town.
Why this long ache,
A knife in my heart.

By far the worst pain
Is to not understand
Why without love or hate
My heart's full of pain.

i grew up with a man who doesnt clear up after food and who just dumped my dose of evidently fresh and bottled barley brew into the clearing sink.

besides the handsome shaven Smith Jerrod-ish types on tv now, im just a faithless girl who really hates men. 3 months ago a Sex and The City quiz i took told me i was Carrie Bradshaw, just today they decided i should be Miranda Hobbes instead.
is there any wonder why im this fucked up yet?

i've spent the past 23 hours smiling my day away and the remaining 24th feeling like it didn't happen.
what is a girl to do on her own.
and who am i alone.